Self-Love September & Beyond

There’s something we all have in common, other than our actual humanity, of course. No one is ever satisfied, not completely. “If I wore this, I would’ve looked more attractive”, “If I had that I would be happier”, “If I wasn’t like this, more people would like me”. Even if it is the smallest detail, there’s something we want to be different. Now, don’t feel overwhelmed. I’m not gonna give some grand advice that’s gonna fix everything.

Sorry…

However, what I’m talking about is the power of positive self-perception and for that, I have a suggestion. Or rather here’s what I do, in a nutshell, if you’re curious.

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*unicorns puking rainbows and fairies farting  confetti*

Now before you roll your eyes at the very cliche response (rude!), let me tell you about how I started to view myself and the journey to becoming aware of how to love myself.

[long story short; hella hella short]
So!
I didn’t really understand “attractiveness” until I was in high school – an all-girls’ school too – and realized I was the DUFF. I really dislike that word btw. Anyway, I thought nothing would ever change so I didn’t give it that much attention and then I went to university and I started getting a new kind of attention.
THE END

Okay, okay. I’m really going somewhere with this – I think?


Here’s one thing: I always loved my legs, all my life – and my shoulders, and my boobs, and.. that’s it. Everything needed fixing or hiding as I was considered (which is mega fucked up). When I got to university I started wearing shorts, A LOT, hence the newfound attention I was getting.

*sidenote* I wasn't TRYING to get attention but I just really loved 
how my legs look and I live in Jamaica. It's hot, okay?

I say all of this to say that I got into the habit of forcing self-love down my own throat (not weird at all, right?). Every once in a while I’d take a photo of myself, exactly how I wanted, disregarding what anyone else might’ve wanted to see. My Instagram (private acc.) is hella proof of this:

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“Love this version of yourself so that whatever new version you decide to become can focus on just being”. It’s one of the few things I drill into my head. Even my habit tracker in my bullet journal is not just for ole fashioned good habits but for ones that I can get addicted to, thus being proud of myself each time I do it. One thing I decided to do, totally by myself (I thought it would sound stupid to explain it to my friends), was Self-Love September. Now, this isn’t new at all. I actually saw this on a mom blog once (hahaha-don’taskmehowIgotthere- hahaha). It’s just a nice pick-me-up to just enjoy by myself and for myself. I, as well as you, should be allowed to acknowledge who we are at face value and present it how we please – or at least how we want to be acknowledged. September is just a month. Obviously. September will come to an end. Obviously, again (I just loooove stating facts, lol).

But in all honesty, there’s still beyond. Beyond this month, beyond this year, beyond the next hour. We won’t feel 100% every day but we shouldn’t plummet to 0% either.


Why shouldn’t a self-love not last beyond a fleeting moment? Why can’t we allow ourselves to feel this way all the time? 

Fact: It should. We can.

 

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Creating a personal aesthetic | Am I doing it right?

aesthetic

noun | aes·thet·ic  \ es-ˈthe-tik, is-, British usually ēs- \
Definition:

a set of principles underlying the work of a particular artist or artistic movement.


What do you think your aesthetic is? What qualities or consistencies create your unique style? I ask myself this question, a million times and I think I know what it is – I think. There are millions of sites and articles with tips and tricks on how to secure your signature on and offline.

Now.. I could go on and on about these tips I see online and talk about it in the strictest sense, saying stuff like:

  • Have a set colour scheme – or at least a go-to filter,
  • Know your “brand” (I’m so tired of these articles, I get more confused than clarity),
  • Determine your target market,
  • Add a logo or watermark,
  • Stick to one type of content,
  • Post consistently,
  • Etc, etc,etc.

All that advice is great and all but sometimes I just want to post something I’m really interested but the weirdo in me wants it to look cool as fuck too. But then I think about if my offline persona has anything to do with it. I do dress however I feel but still, try to look somewhat put together (I don’t want my mother to feel embarrassed of me, y’know?.. ha, ha.). That begs the question: Should my offline and online persona match? Personally, I don’t think I know how to do that. I don’t have any favouritecolours, styles, types of music or even cereal (jk, Froot Loops all thawaaaaayyy).

But seriously, I’d love to leave a “good impression” and have a strong “presence” and I do, sometimes, put a lot of effort into it but I don’t think a have a “thing” – y’know, my own “thing”; a “me-thing”. I like what I like and I really thought that would be enough.

Despite my lack of understanding as far how my angle works, there are so many benefits to doing these things (i.e. the aforementioned list), and a lot of what I’ve been working on so far has given me some semblance of seeming like I know what I’m doing.

To be perfectly honest, I just want to read books and feel pretty from time to time whilst engaging with people who have similar interest and want to connect. I just want to share and converse; share and converse without the hassle of synchronizing a spectrum of purples or remembering to use the same filter every time. This isn’t to say that you should get sloppy if you have a brand or have a niche market, but I think one can experience authenticity and relatability in appreciating a somewhat haphazard human timeline that is more the person than the editing.

With that being said, I do think I’m doing this all wrong. There is an “image” I ‘d like to create for myself as an author, lover of books and a creative who always has fresh ideas but just like this post my brain is chaotic and can never think in a straight line. I also think I’m doing it well enough to focus on the content that’s beyond this wrapping.

Needless to say, my aesthetic has a lot of missing puzzle pieces that aren’t ready to be found yet.


What about you? What works for you? What do you think people see that separates you from everyone else?

 

 

 

My book’s first ever review by Drew-Kiercey Whittaker

This review was given from the first time I gave away Epiphany and I really appreciated the insight and advice, so I thought I should share it.

I love how honest it is and I realized that I never got around to posting it. The tips are things I try to be mindful of and use throughout my new pieces.

Whether it is a fellow writer or friend, it never hurts to get a second opinion.

I hope you guys enjoy, especially those of you who’ve already read the book.


Short Review of Epiphany by Drew-Kiercey Whittaker

Hi, I’m Kerine and I’m an INTP? Or INFJ? (Depends who you ask)

I’m almost sure that most people have taken a personality at least once in their life. Whether it was just some stupid magazine quiz or maybe you did one for a job interview (it’s a thing, trust me). Nonetheless, we’ve taken these tests to see if there’s a category we fit into and if we agree with the results we get.

There are a plethora of different tests but the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator (MBTI) never fails to get mentioned. The test acts as a questionnaire to determine – or rather inform you of how you perceive the world around you and how you make decisions. The test originally stemmed from Carl Jung’s typological theory who had speculated that there are four principal psychological functions by which humans experience the world – sensation, intuition, feeling, and thinking – and that one of these four functions is dominant for a person most of the time. So, what does that give us?

  • Extroversion/Introversion (E/I) 

  •  Sensing/Intuition (S/N)

  • Thinking/Feeling (T/F)

  • Judging/Perception (J/P)

 

We all know 2^4 = 16, hence 16 personality combinations, blah, blah, blah… I would go into more detail for each but I’d like to assume that people aren’t just taking these tests without knowing what these concepts (or at least their own results) mean. But, if you really wanna explore the different types, check out this website that shows how they categorize the 16 different results.

Speaking of websites, results, and whatever, here are mine.

I am an:

INFJ (Introversion, Intuiting, Feeling and Judging)

This apparently means,

  1. I tend to be reserved, quiet and have a small circle of close friends.
  2. I prefer abstract concepts and tend to focus on the big picture rather than concrete details.
  3. I place a greater emphasis on personal concerns than objective facts when making decisions.
  4. I like to exert control by planning, organizing and making decisions as early as possible.
  5. INFJs have an innate ability to understand other people’s feelings. While they are introverted, they sometimes seem extroverted at times due to their strong interest in people and society. INFJs are interested in helping others and making the world a better place.
  6. INFJs also have a talent for language and are usually quite good at expressing themselves on paper. They have a vivid inner life, but they are often hesitant to share this with others except for perhaps those closest to them.

I took this test twice and got this result. To be honest I agree with a majority of it. I do think I express myself better on paper than with spoken words and that most of my “extrovert” tendencies happen out of the sheer fascination of how other people interact in society.

Another test I took (twice also) told me I’m an:

INTP (Introversion, Intuiting, Thinking and Perceiving)

According to them:

  1. I’m fairly rare, making up only three percent of the population, which is definitely a good thing for them, as there’s nothing they’d be more unhappy about than being “common”.
  2. I’m enthusiastic and capable of spotting a problem, drilling through the endless factors and details that encompass the issue and developing a unique and viable solution.
  3. INTPs are restless and have a pervasive fear of failure.
  4. They love patterns, and spotting discrepancies between statements could almost be described as a hobby, making it a bad idea to lie to an INTP. This makes it ironic that INTPs’ word should always be taken with a grain of salt – it’s not that they are dishonest, but people with the INTP personality type tend to share thoughts that are not fully developed, using others as a sounding board for ideas and theories in a debate against themselves rather than as actual conversation partners.
  5. Their constant thinking can have the effect of making them look pensive and detached, as they are often conducting full-fledged debates in their own heads, but really INTPs are quite relaxed and friendly when they are with people they know, or who share their interests. However, this can be replaced by overwhelming shyness when INTP personalities are among unfamiliar faces, and friendly banter can quickly become combative if they believe their logical conclusions or theories are being criticized.

Find out more about this type here.

Funnily enough, this type fits my personality just as well. I do often have full-fledged banter in my own head and as much as I try to take failures as life lessons, I rather not fail at all.


Now, if both are right (seeing that I agree with them), then which one am I?

They definitely got one thing right. I am an introvert through and through. My “me-time” is what I need. Heck, if “me-time” was all the time, I’d be a fucking magical unicorn by now. The tests also think I’m intuitive (thank you very much). They don’t seem to agree on the later two but all four kinda work.

The bigger question is… Does it even matter?

For me, yes and no.

This wasn’t some sort of official experiment- oh no, no, no! BUT with the possibility of there being different results, you wonder what sort of metric is being used to tell you if you’re like this or like that. The tests did confirm one thing for me though and it’s that every human conscience falls on a spectrum and honestly, that’s very comforting. It’s good to ‘belong’ but it’s also good to know there are intricacies to your unique character that can’t be dictated by some test.

Although there’s no real science to it, the fad isn’t without its value. There’s nothing wrong with wanting to find better ways to understand people. Life’s already hard as it is and finding more simple ways to connect always helps (even if it’s just a conversational point). This classification doesn’t represent everything that makes me “Kerine” but there’s a lot of key points that are pretty close – close enough to help me relate to others because I’m REALLY bad at that. Really. If I could send a life-size cut out of myself to interact with people, I would do it. *whispers* please tell me that exists.

Knowing your type should spark a conversation and not invalidate your existence, achievements, and uniqueness. It doesn’t do justice to who you are or who you could be.


So.

Hi, I’m Kerine and I’m just me.

Top 8 Favourite Scripted Fiction Podcasts

These are my top 8 choices if you’re looking for a new kind of story that you can experience in this wave of audio storytelling.

Also, check out my post on how Welcome to NightVale inspires me.

Enjoy!

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Night Vale Presents Network

Needless to say, I’m a huge fan of the entire network but I have to mention Welcome to NightVale and Alice Isn’t Dead. I suggest listening to every one of the shows they produce but here’s my favourite, Alice Isn’t Dead.

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Synopsis

A truck driver searches across America for the wife she had long assumed was dead. In the course of her search, she will encounter not-quite-human serial murderers, towns literally lost in time and a conspiracy that goes way beyond one missing woman.

 


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Limetown

Synopsis

Ten years ago, over three hundred men, women and children disappeared from a small town in Tennessee, never to be heard from again. American Public Radio reporter Lia Haddock asks the question once more, “What happened to the people of Limetown?”

 


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The Bright Sessions

Synopsis

The Bright Sessions is a science fiction podcast that follows a group of therapy patients. But these are not your typical patients – each has a unique supernatural ability. The show documents their struggles and discoveries as well as the motivations of their mysterious therapist, Dr. Bright.

 


The Penumbra Podcast

Synopsis

The Penumbra is all about stories you recognize told in ways you won’t expect. Your femme fatale might be a homme fatale; you might find that not every haunting needs a ghost. Your criminal underworld might advertise on billboards ten miles tall, and when push comes to shove your home might have a bit more heart than you’re comfortable with. It’s never just a heist, a Western, an adventure. It’s the parts we think are still fresh about those genres — along with what we find along the tracks.

And what will we find, you ask? Well… see for yourself.


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ars PARADOXICA

Synopsis

ars PARADOXICA is a love letter to physics, fiction, and the future. It’s a disorienting journey through spacetime and the Cold War. It’s a tome of secret history you stumbled across in a library in the dead of night.

When an experiment in a time much like our own goes horribly awry, Dr. Sally Grissom finds herself stranded in the past and entrenched in the activities of a clandestine branch of the US government. Grissom and her team quickly learn that there’s no safety net when toying with the fundamental logic of the universe.


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LifeAfter

Synopsis

The 10 episode series follows Ross, a low-level employee at the FBI, who spends his days conversing online with his wife Charlie – who died eight months ago. But the technology behind this digital resurrection leads Ross down a dangerous path that threatens his job, his own life, and maybe even the world. New episodes every Sunday.


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Mabel

Synopsis

A podcast about ghosts, family secrets, strange houses, and missed connections.


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Lesser Gods

Synopsis

Lesser Gods is a soundscaped, serialized mystery told from shifting perspectives. Each episode is narrated by different characters. Be careful who you believe.


 

Hope you guys check these podcasts out and experience the great stories they have to tell.

Patreon News | New Story Alert!

While putting together How To Survive Being Alive, I’ve started two new stories but today I’m announcing Divine Resolution. I’m excited about this story and its characters, especially!

Head on over to patreon.com/KerineW for more behind the scenes info and story snippets. Don’t forget to make a pledge to help fund this and many other stories like How to Survive Being Alive, out now on Amazon (free copy with pledge)!

 

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